lost in space

Keely's seventeen surprise

2012-01-27T01:52:00.000-08:00

Went over to Mrs Ow's house for a art gathering. Quite ridiculous because only Jackie, Regina, Tiffany and I went for it. Tasted super frikkin' delicious curry cooked by Mrs Ow that day! Luckily it wasn't as awkward as we all thought it would be ..

couldn't find anything to wear so i just threw on the other shirt i made and denim shorts

the sign that diminishes hopes of small kids

Yesterday:
We decided to give Keely a surprise for her seventeenth birthday! Went over to Ashley's house in the morning to bake fudgey brownies

Somewhere near noon, we headed over to Nex for the surprise. We hid Estee and Eunice in the exit to the staircase and made them light the candles and all.
We pretended to play bridge and wait for everyone else who was late ..while they creeped up and presented her with the brownie and card!
Michelle and I swapped her current lens for the 50mm f1.8 lens we bought for her ..hooray!

i love this photo of my friends, they look so happy it's adorable. ♥

Afterwards we caught We Not Naughty ..some scenes were funny but all in all i thought the movie was quite unrealistic and lame. How many movies must be made till they learn to be a good kid?
Boarded public transport to Keely's house for ....cards and dinner. Mm.

i think i accidentally made this child feel terrified when i suddenly started snapping pictures of her, oops. i'm sorry.

don't start wars with yourself, fight battles together.

2012-01-23T08:44:00.000-08:00

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bought buttons to fix up a shirt, but in the end i gave up because the cutting was horrid and thus i decided to cut it up into a detachable collar.

i am planning to sew sequins all over this collar. project currently on halt because i can't find similar sequins in larger quantities. i am so obsessed with sequins these days that i am also sewing them on an old black skirt. i hope when i fix up that skirt, i will wear it out more often.

my fishes have a clean tank after a year of procrastination!

chinese new year snacks: pineapple tarts and some chips that have kept me running these days.

today, on the first day of a new year according to the lunar calendar, i went to visit my grandmother at her house.

i hardly have the tradition of buying new clothes for lunar new year, because my mother has this infinite grudge against buying unneccessary items like clothes. Thus, i just dug out an outfit from my boring closet and went on with my life.

i am sorry about repetitive photographs. i can't seem to decide which to put up, thus the indecisive mind comes up with this amazing solution: put up everything!

cat ..in the fields. sometimes i think my imagination brings me too far.

hello, these are my sisters. i am the middle child. what a pun time, so punny! ~~gets shot~~

i scored this wine red jewel tone velvet skirt for fifteen a month ago in Bugis. Yay!

then my diva sister wanted me to take pictures with her so i tested out the lighting.
I am extremely anal about lighting when it comes to taking pictures of people because i don't really like to take pictures of myself so unflattering pictures are a no-no.
I used to have this fear of being in front of the camera because i couldn't stand looking at myself (awful esteem issues which i still battle with everyday). Then after some time, i realised that if i wanted to take photography seriously, i couldn't be a coward who can't face her irrational fears.
I think I've improved quite a lot when it comes to facing this fear ..though i still cringe when people take pictures in horrible lighting and we all look awfully unflattering.
Also a reason why i will happily accept being the photographer just so i can try to bring out the best in people when they are photographs.

my cousins in America, i hope they are doing well :)

traditional chinese soup is the bomb

Basking Robins! Mmm their strawberry cheese cake ice cream is heavenly ♥

Walked over the Starbucks to chill with Coffee.

Dinner at Fish n Co!

these mussels are the best on the menu. Mediterranean baked bread dipped in this creamy garlic sauce ..delicious.

it's my first time wearing a long skirt :O

I got a new mustard wallet. Somehow the colour manages to brighten up my mood, and i like that.

Testing out the new stuff i got. I don't really use make-up but the glittery gold and silver and nude and all palate just brought out the OCD within me that's crazy over things that shine in the light. And the liquid liner ..well ..it was ..burgundy and gold.
INVESTMENTS ..IS WHAT I CALL THEM.

favourite tunes of the day

the art of being happy lies in the power to extract happiness from common things

2012-01-20T09:49:00.000-08:00

just a bunch of random photographs taken everywhere

rainacorn rainacorn rainacorn

baked fudgey brownies at A's house. i call him afrobrownie.

pretty kitty

seletar

scales on the tennis court

towel scarf

perspective

high up

circling bird

myopic

lone ranger

old school

raindrops falling on useless metal structures

i experimented today

my favourite songs of the day

2am has become my favourite time of the day to start creating an entry.
hello, i wonder who you are.

high on caffeine, sugar and cards

2012-01-18T19:39:00.000-08:00

photographs, photographs and more photographs: i'll advice you to read this with a solid internet connection.

Yesterday: we blew all our money on buffet at SAFRA tampines, bowled to our hearts content, laughed so hard we almost peed in our pants and had the most intensive and hilarious bridge tournament in our entire lives.

We were also wearing our AMP (Accelerated Math Programme) shirt -it takes a certain amount of guts to wear this shirt out in public. The amount of disturbed faces and disapproving stares we get ..IT'S HILARIOUS.
But i thought it was a good idea we got from Glee because it also has a lot of meaning behind it.

i absolutely love J's angry face. How can someone look so cute with that kind of expression!?

The gifs below perfectly illustrates our mood yesterday:

then i came up with a brilliant idea: LET'S ATTEMPT TO LEVITATE

M is quite good at it, but when J does it, I CANNOT STOP LAUGHING BECAUSE SHE ALWAYS LOOKS UP AND GIVE THIS CONSTIPATED EXPRESSION WHENEVER SHE JUMPS UP HAHAHAHA

And it looks like she just hit her head into an invisible glass panel:

"You can't just place your hands at the sides, you must use them naturally."
THE PICTURE BELOW IS HER NATURAL POSE HAHAHAHAHA I love it when people interpret my direction in a completely different way

FRISBEE PEOPLE

Joyce tries very hard to levitate

I love how she still can't get rid of that habit of looking up and looking constipated

"Use your hands!"
"OKAY OKAY I WILL USE."

HAHAHAHA not like that, J.

"USE YOUR HANDS!"

Not like this, A.

Master of levitation, M at her best:

Then i tried to levitate too.

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We then headed over to Tampines for coffee and donuts, but mostly for cards.

We went INSANE over here. I don't think i've laughed so hard in a span of two hours in my entire life. I'm sorry if we were public nuisance, but such happiness can't be contained! (especially under the influence of caffeine and sugar)

This is what happens when you keep lying about being partners with people, A. You won't win any sets HAHAHAHA.

And i shall end with this gif which is the perfect example of how the four of us were acting in the cafe.
Goodbye!

golden

2012-01-18T19:09:00.000-08:00

Our usual weekly badminton session

One of my dearest friends Laeticia is leaving for Australia to further her studies. Those sessions we spent in the science laboratories doodling on the tables, singing, laughing at our own jokes -i'll miss them all. Even though we have only known each other for two years, i know this friendship wouldn't end any sooner. Have the experience of your lifetime and return with a hot australian accent, labner!

:*)

i ran a little too quickly into the frame to catch the self timer and viola! embarrassing fall for you.

Laeticia is the master of camwhoring, always eager to pose for the camera.
Here she is, swimming in photobomber Tiffany's hair.

x

2012-01-17T09:18:00.000-08:00

in the afternoon, i accompanied T to dye her hair a copper red colour.

spider, no?

the way i normally stand spells awkward. apologies.

made this shirt a few weeks back, along with another. initially i wanted to have a shoot but didn't have the chance to do it. maybe in the near future?

it's 2:30am and here i am, writing. i realise that as the night grows deeper, the more awake i feel. i guess having something to accomplish before i turn off the computer and head to bed helps trick my brain into falling asleep. i just studded a collar of an ill-fitting oversized shirt, which i'll probably wear as an outerwear. now my thumbs and my index fingers are feeling real sore.

i have to wake at 9 tomorrow ..i should get going. goodnight, my friends.

woes of a poor photography-loving teenager.

2012-01-15T09:29:00.000-08:00

just a couple of rather boring pictures to illustrate the past few days

after some experiments, i hereby conclude that alcohol gives me headaches and makes me itch at strange places. i don't think i like that very much.

a super quick painting of a seal, for my friend. i'm surprised i could get it to look presentable with that bottle of alcohol in my system.

trying my very best to draw Florence, but damn, she's tough.

i'm returning K's 550D tomorrow, thus there would be no more high quality pictures. mm hmm, i am feeling very bitter ..how i wished i owned a DSLR.
i would love it and use it with all my heart.

you are radioactive

2012-01-13T20:38:00.000-08:00

decided to draw Adele the other day because i was itching to improve my poor painting skills. humans are the hardest subject for me when it comes to drawing, so ..i'll be practising humans more than usual in the next few weeks.

this picture above is here because K took it. kind of unglam, but hey, that's part of our daily lives!

we made our way to Laselle's open house for the first time:

again, this is here because K took it.. and no, i do not walk like that often.

the campus is beyond beautiful

really amazing drum performance: it was full of energy and happy vibes! all the drummers had their own swag and were all grooving to the beats, it was so entertaining to watch!

i developed a deep attachment to this moving balloon human thing because the way it moves reminds me of the way Finn the human dances. ah, life's simple pleasures.

i love how the Laselle campus is oddly wedged in the middle of HDB estates.

time fo foooooooood

CHECK OUT A'S NEW GIFTED DECK, I ADORE IT SO MUCH ..I THINK I WILL GET THE RED VERSION OF THIS SERIES.

JUST

LOOK

AT

THIS

BEAUTY!

how cool would it be if i knew how to use a Katana

We pretty much stoned infront of the dangling lights in Plaza Singapura for a long while before we decided to head in Spotlight

Then we went over to Gloria Jean's for some glorious Caffe Mocha and of course ..to play cards, yay surprise surprise

we left our new year resolution on the cork board

doodled random crap on the napkin and even left a thank-you message for the staff who cleared our coffee mug

hello swimming light in the night sky

hello dear friend who recently got an undercut

hello trusty bronze oxfords

hello lego arm

hello marching boots

i took 2 hours to get home yesterday, because i decided to take the bus-bus-bus-home route with the mates instead of the conventional train-bus-home.
stupid? no. i prefer to call it a once-in-a-lifetime experience.

thank you, God.

2012-01-09T06:54:00.000-08:00

results were alright.. much better than expected. (i had constant nightmares of getting 16 oh my goodness) though i slogged my guts out for Art throughout the year and only received an A2 ..i am still thankful of my results. (thank you for showing me that i could do it despite taking so many subjects and driving myself into the pits of hell)

i'm real proud of my mates, you all worked hard! don't be discouraged if you didn't do well, there will be tons of opportunities in the future!

inspired to paint a cat after meeting this orange cat twice in a week

this feeling of freedom is coming to an end

2012-01-07T23:37:00.000-08:00

the other day when i went out with M to check out Oakham Market at chinatown

had iced hazelnut latte and lava cake at shots on Ann Siang Hill. the coffee was magnificent and the cake was sinfully good.

wooden animal pins, i love them to bits (especially the fox one!) but they are too expensive.

On the way to NP open house:

a huge spider hanging onto it's well spun web that stretched from the building to a nearby fence

The second time Pony7 and Chief wore shirts that looked similar ..coincidentally.
K challenged A + B to hold hands and walk into school for $2 ..the puzzled expression on everyone's face was PRICELESS.

my new deck!

I was such an awkward kid at SP open house. I think i was so oblivious of my surroundings i kind of offended some people ..I AM VERY APOLOGETIC. This is official: I cannot hold normal conversations with people i'm not extremely close to.

Tomorrow is Monday, results day. Petrified. I don't know what to feel.

a year of new beginnings

2012-01-02T08:36:00.000-08:00

grainy granny photographs

sketched a horse the other day on the cream coloured paper in my inspiration log while trying my very best to ignore the noise around me

new year eve morning light making their way through the translucent twelve year old curtains

woodleigh

the first sight my eyes take in when i open them during a sleepover at A's house

the attic windows at A's house

chilling with Robbie

Robbie chilling

purple sunsets by the window

afternoon rays filtered by a tall tree with evergreen leaves

twigs, acid washed jeans, double crossed laces

haircut after a full year

work of a procrastinator and poor planner

quick sketch of a kitty cat with my favourite brown watercolour pencil

reading on the wine red sofa next to the window: my attention span is rather short

a pair of pigeons basking in the sun
~~they are not running away from me~~

i like red bricked walls

chocolate that explodes in your mouth mm mm

i did the pictures and words while listening to Two Door Cinema Club and Artic Monkeys
it's 1am and i'm over at K's house. that explains this post.

grayscale, that's how it goes

2011-12-30T07:01:00.000-08:00

the year is ending too quickly, so i decided to try black/white pictures ..Yay or nay?

My computer died so no updates for now. i hope you have a great day!

it's Christmas!

2011-12-24T08:59:00.000-08:00

pretty friendship bands the shopkeeper beside my workplace was selling. i had to be a sneaky ninja to squat down and pretend to play with my phone in order to photograph those. the length i go to capture something on camera just because i think it would make an interesting picture sometimes startles me.

i spotted this pair of oxfords near my workplace and i really couldn't resist. i've always wanted wine red/burgundy oxfords ..

I bought a hair donut the other day, explains the bun

sweet plum potato fries from Shihlin ..both times i tried to buy them to satisfy my cravings, they were sold out. (been complaining alot about that on Twitter, sorry guys!) 3rd time's the charm though :)

i can't get over the fact that my hands look undead here. purplish and greenish bruising near the joints plus pale white translucent skin.

I decided to wear this on Christmas eve, something more .. whimsical?

hello wall.

decided to try sketching last night sometime around midnight, but got really pissed the more i sketched.

food from japan!:

this post is more unorganised than i already am. But i just wrote it because it's Christmas!

Merry Christmas and be happy, all you beautiful souls out there. ♥

i have searched the world, but i keep coming back to you

2011-12-20T22:08:00.000-08:00

work's been such an experience. i haven't been doing art lately, not even sketching. i collected the shirts i printed the other day and will put them up for order soon after a shoot. am quite excited about it, always wanted to test photograph. i'm aware this chunk of text isn't very interesting, but it's 0213 and my mind is jumbled and unclear. All My Love's been on repeat these few days, i think i miss Cameron's voice a little too much. it's christmas eve today, and tomorrow's christmas. i just formed that last sentence because i like the word 'eve' a lot.

Enroute to Joy, Enjoy!

2011-12-17T09:04:00.000-08:00

because the colours were pretty. no, i am not some teenage alcoholic.

Yesterday we decided to visit my art teacher's solo exhibition at Cupcakes with Love. Before that, i met Tiffany at Orchard to get her industrial piercing. I was super nervous for her ..even more nervous than her. The thought of a relatively thick needle piercing through bone ..hmm not very comforting. She said it didn't hurt as much as expected, oh Tiffany and her mighty pain tolerance level.

I was wearing my chilli red pants because i thought it would be more appropriate than shorts. Many people stared, felt a little more self-conscious than normal.

Had the sinful vinegar beef batter fish for dinner. ~happy celebratory dance~ ~~to welcome a dozen more pimples~~

Arrived at Cupcakes with Love on time! I felt like a pro because i made my way to foreign land solely based on Google Maps and instinct. I thrive on cheap thrills ..i apologise.

with the star of the show! You did a great job, Ms Wong (:

unflattering picture with Zoe. FLOATING FOOD BEHIND US: 10 POINTS IF YOU SHOOT DOWN THE JELLY AND 15 IF YOU TAKE DOWN THE PASTRIES!

P.S. the photographs are so overexposed and strange because the lighting wasn't good enough for my digicam, especially when it comes to taking pictures of people. We all looked red and our imperfections were infinitely magnified. I tried my best.. *hides in corner*

Bet your stomach just rumbled. Mine feels like it's halfway through an olympics-standard gymnastics routine. BUT I WILL PERSEVERE TILL THE END OF THIS ENTRY.

Ms Wong kindly gifted us some of her self silkscreened totebags! ♥ x They are available on sale at the exhibition. Go support her, the work is amazing!

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Then I bought a red velvet cupcake and skipped my way to Keely's house. She's leaving for europe and i won't see her till next year, so a part of my brain felt it was necessary to deliver her a gift. (Not like she ain't coming back ..but i don't know i just felt it was necessary. odd.)

Turns out we missed a couple of bus-stops on the bus to her house and i turned into an angsty kid. But ...she let us stay over at her house so i was happy again.

yes. i am happy. so i lived in her closet for awhile.

GOODBYE KEELY, HAVE FUN IN EUROPE WHILE I ROT IN SINGAPORE! ♥

Oh my, it's 2am and i have to wake up at 9am for work tomorrow. My first time in this year, i hope the boss will like me and God would dispel my awkwardness and i'll speak loud and clear and not babble some nonsensical crap to customers.

Goodnight beautiful world ♥ x

Adventure Time

2011-12-15T01:27:00.000-08:00

Working on a drawing .. of a camera i have always wished to own. Canon 5D Mark ii ♥
but i kinda screwed up the lens and am too lazy to complete it.

Bought new nail polish at a flea for a great deal, pretty much addicted to painting my nails now. glitter polish is a pain in the ass to remove, but i can't resist. tried to do the galaxy nails, but failed.

miso ramen, vinaigrette salad for brunch.

Ashley's house with the people. Robbie the golden retriever is adorable, plus her house is a wonderful place for chilling. the view is cool.

midnight cravings.

the odd looking plant my neighbour has.

that morning i tried to cook a perfect sunny side up, doesn't look very good but it tastes fine.

a fly landed on my feet :O ..

I bought a softdrink with g-dragon on the can. ~happy~ ◕‿◕

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gong cha milk alisan tea 80% sugar less ice! ultimate love!

these burgundy skinny jeans (I want them so bad!) and the red polka-dotted peterpan collar top from topshop are so beautiful. Unfortunately, they cost too much for my wallet to handle. poor4lyfe

wore something simple that day when i went out to enquire about the price of piercings with Tiffany. Orange chiffon shorts i got from a flea quite long ago, a white collared blouse from my sister's closet, wine red socks and bronze oxfords. Decided to bring out my granny glasses as an accessory just so i wouldn't feel so guilty about that impulsive buy.

P.S. pardon the low-quality pictures, my phone's camera is 5m.p and has HORRIBLY slow shutter speed. And the lighting in most places aren't being helpful either ..

I FINALLY FOUND OUT THE NAME OF THIS CARTOON, IT'S ADVENTURE TIME. :*D

lone

2011-12-10T06:43:00.000-08:00

Sometimes i wonder what am i doing with my life. I see other people around me working, flying off to exotic places, accomplishing things they wish to do. And here i am, sixteen with nothing. unable to travel due to the lack of funds, unable to do much due to the lack of equipment. wasting my days away trying to create something extraordinary out of nothing.

what the heck am i doing ..?

mad moments with friends

2011-12-07T08:53:00.000-08:00

You are the Apple of my Eye is a FANTASTIC movie. One of the best i've ever watched. Had alot of doubts about it but caved in when my friends decided to watch it again for the second time. The movie is really bittersweet -I didn't know what bittersweet exactly meant last time, but i finally understood its true meaning after watching it. It had hilarious scenes too though! You have to catch it if you haven't, it's worth it. :)

smiles

2011-12-06T19:14:00.000-08:00

i watched 《一泡而红》 yesterday and had a moment of self-realisation.
i noticed my attraction towards 小鬼 goes up whenever he smiles.
so i realised ..that all the people i've liked in the past had really pretty smiles and the image of them that i remember in my mind is a still frame of them smiling.

so smile, that'll have the power to make someone else do too :)

bits and pieces of rugged thoughts

2011-12-04T14:39:00.000-08:00

is it wrong of me to retaliate after so many personal attacks although she's the one who birthed me? i wince at the words she hurls each day, words to keep her depression in check, words that feel like acid rain on the skin. i try to suppress the fiery ball of anger that simmers in my chest and surges up my throat, only to find myself reprimanding herself for lacking self-discipline fifteen minutes later. i try to press my hands over my ears, bite my lip in hope of new-found tolerance, squeeze my eyes shut in hope that a little of that brimful of pain would seep out in a mixture of salt and water. try very hard indeed to stop that fiery ball of anger. but it always comes, like a blood-thirsty monster approaching its target, reckless and ruthless, seeking the quickest way to experience a fleeting moment of painless-ness. painless-ness isn't a word ..of course -not here, not ever, as long as you're in vicinity of people who don't value their greatest gift of being granted the ability to live. in bliss.

life (in the past few days) in visuals #2

2011-12-03T00:36:00.000-08:00

my prom nails: i painted them with some $3 cheap polish while watching the Pooh movie. i love my cat ring though :)

I attended the first wedding of my life a week ago! I am aware i'm a pretty deprived child. Congratulations Ms Yee, you've been a wonderful Art teacher for the past 2 years.

My other fantastic art mentor, Mrs Ow. I love how she wore a yellow wig, life is more interesting that way.

Skies, skies, blue skies are here.

My dad fried some noodles that way. It's been a long while since i ate some decent home-cooked food.

I bought this polish called Twinkle Lights the other day. I've always wanted one with rainbow sparkles but i could never find it, thus i settled for thisese. I like how the 3 glitters are in Christmas colours. I can never get enough of Gold, Red andForest Green.

The other day we went out to watch Breaking Dawn. I love all my friends. Can't wait for tuesday, dance party at my house ..(DDR style!)

life (in the past few days) in visuals #1

2011-11-28T20:43:00.000-08:00

float

2011-11-26T04:14:00.001-08:00

Hello world. I've been very lazy when it comes to updating this space. as much as i try to convince myself, the logical part of my brain sees no point in updating a space that nobody reads.. excluding me. I'm enjoying myself a lot, trying to forget my horrid performance for the last few months. I've been having a blast with my friends, bonding with those whom were not as close. I'm blessed all of my close friends aren't superficial, judgmental or anywhere near average. They are a fantastic bunch of people who are beautiful in and out, people who care more for others than for themselves, and people who aren't let downs. I hardly feel awkward amongst them. I took more pictures in the last few days than ever before (i really dislike being in photographs, but i know i shouldn't let my insecurities spoil the fun).

But the funny thing is, i'm writing this post because i feel really awful today. Bored, upset, sad, distraught, worried ..you name it. all the feelings i suppress and conquer daily, out to haunt me. I count myself as lucky, but my life isn't exactly as amazing as i make it out to be because i'm forced to battle huge amounts of that sort of feelings everyday. I'm still learning how to let go and forgive easily, love even the ones who hurt you most, and see past a person's flaws. It's very tempting to let yourself be sucked into that blackhole, where you don't have to give a damn about anything or anyone when you feel horrible, upset and angry. But i've decided long ago i am never going to do that, although it's a much easier option. I may feel like i'm going to blow, but i will not blow unless i let myself succumb to it. I don't want to be consumed inside and turn into a bitter person. I want to be able to see through that thick fog of anger and unhappiness, and believe that there is love and hope.
I want to live every day of my life wanting to be a better person, and maybe inspire a few others in the process, even though life may be tough.

(why hello, i see you are reading the title of this post.)

2011-11-16T17:06:00.000-08:00

Tiffany says I should set this as my display picture to scare away boys. In my head I was like: Oh please, even without this display picture i already scare enough people away.

+AFA 2011: I met many of my greatest inspirations in the field of Art/Photography. (Jin, Miguel and the tux team!)
+Prom shopping (such a chore brr)
+Watching TVD (Next thing i'm going to do is get their soundtrack, most of the songs are in my genre mm.)

I've been doing more, but updating bout it can wait. Follow me on twittaverse @collarious

sometimes i wish i could just fall into a blackhole and escape from all these troubles

2011-11-06T23:31:00.000-08:00

eft with less than 24 hours to complete prep work

lethargic I am ..can't wait for blue skies to be here.

Bleak

2011-11-04T06:48:00.000-07:00

pulling almost all-nighters for certain subjects, screwing up papers i shouldn't.
I forgot to use the formula given in the formula sheet for one of the questions in the additional math paper and ended up screwing the last 2 questions, total loss of 25 marks for paper two. I am still feeling bitter about it, because that subject is the only tuition i have. I feel like i'm going to get a lower-than-expected grade just because i screwed up the most important paper in my secondary four life. I feel terribly awful whenever i think of it, because it just reminds me of all that money my parents spent on letting me attend tuition classes. Truly pathetic. i don't know why, but i cried myself to sleep that night. I also screwed up my physics paper because of poor time management. The paper started three minutes early and it just slipped off my mind, i was busy trying to perfect a fucking reflection diagram that costs 1 mark and i ended up not doing 8 marks worth of questions. I studied so bloody hard for geography, only to realise i don't have enough time to write down the answer the questions to my fullest ability. Hybrid questions did not even come out, the elective geography paper was in four separate themes (Seriously.. ?)
I pulled a disciplined all-nighter to study three themes for social studies, only to realise Venice didn't come out,disgusting d&d which i didn't touch and globalisation (three times, Cambridge, are you trying to mock us?) came out. On top of that, my SBQ answers were complete bullshit and i only managed to pen down less than 10 paragraphs in total. I manually shredded the question paper after the exam. English was so incredibly shaky for me (supposedly one of my better subjects) and i have constant nightmares of getting B3 for English and 18 for my O levels.

The sequence of my life for the past week: Memorise the entire chemistry textbook, repeat for physics and geography in a day, repeat for biology in a night, repeat for social studies in a night. Brain drained. I am so, so glad its over.

Even though i thank Jesus so much for helping me get through this mad week, there's this part in me knows i've done so badly for O's. Nothing within my expectations.
It's funny how i prayed and still pray so hard each night.

I'm still surviving on three hours of sleep. On a lighter note, i watched Time In (Justin Timberlake, hot guys and girls, british accents, kickass moves), smacked 10 bottoms for a dare and ran down a storey-high upriding escalator with 7 of my friends today. It was fun, i felt like some sort of a legit wild child who was suppressed and caged for far too long.
Right now, I just need my fix of Ian Somerhalder in an episode of TVD before i catch some well-deserved sleep. Goodnight, martians.

Stay Positive, all you wanderers.

2011-10-16T19:50:00.000-07:00

Been cooking my breakfast these past days as a form stress therapy.
Receiving Art paper 2 topics tomorrow, and am not coping well with my 10 subjects.
Every morning when i wake i feel this urge to give up. Feels like as though I'm running on and on but never will see the glorious end.
It doesn't help I'm not the kind that can sit down, study and get it all done in one sitting. My mind wanders too much, and its something that can't be stopped.
I don't want to see my result slip next year and pretend to shrug the disappointment off, while feeling happy for others. I want to be happy for myself too.

*breathe*

7 days. Do my best and trust God, because I'm positive I can't do it alone.

Pumped up Kicks

2011-10-09T05:24:00.000-07:00

THIS TOTALLY MADE MY DAY.
Cameron + Damian + Aj + Bryce
One of the few songs that's within my pathetic range and they covered it! I was just listening to the real deal when i realised this came up. I swear i was stoked (still am) and went to make it into an mp3 for bob

A decade long connection

2011-10-07T09:00:00.000-07:00

There was this particular morning when i walked out of my house and saw this breathtaking view of the morning light creeping up up up, trying to break through the clouds

+sketched a girl out of my head in 15 minutes! ~rare satisfying moments~+
+and a pretty impulsive purchase, but i don't regret because i like vintage spectacles very much+
+the overgrown unkempt hair i can hide under+

official last day of school today.
a decade long journey in the same school pretty much molds you into You, doesn't matter whether you went with the flow or against it

the beautiful people whom i've met along the way are blessings i didn't deserve to keep ♥

She said, L.I.F.E.G.O.E.S.O.N, You've got heart and you're going your own way.

2011-10-06T02:41:00.000-07:00

Experimenting and self-discovering: Currently searching for a faster way to complete decent-looking drawings that satisfy my mild perfectionist disorder. Pencils are perfect but definitely too slow, watercolors are beautiful and much faster but sometimes too bland for my liking.

Lee Child is my FAVOURITE thriller writer to date. I think i get adrenaline rushes just reading his books. Devoured 6 titles in less than a week, not a good thing for someone taking O's in less than a month.

Take-home frozen yogurt, its legendary when your damp mood needs to be refreshed

I broke my little toe when i ninja-ed into the metal leg of my sofa in my groggy sleepy state.
I pretty much walk like a cripple now, hobbling everywhere and letting out random gasps of pain, like a walking joke.

What do you do when pain stops you from studying? Cook yourself a plate of lunch and wash it all down with XXX Vitamin water :-)

frozen Strawberry popsicles

Cameron Mitchell's my new favourite artist next to Owl City. He plays the guitar well, the tone of his voice is startling (calming yet pretty enough to be put on repeat), he wears geek spectacles and looks amazing in them, his dress sense is fine enough, he's tall, and on top of that I respect him so much for being able to be so confident about his awkwardness and geekiness. (so so so Inspiring and completely applicable to me.)

ah. sorry, got carried away.
P.S. Cameron's lover, Macy is really brilliant too. Her slightly rustic voice is gorgeous.

It's 6th October today. Steve Jobs passed away. RIP.
Without him, i wouldn't have Bob to accompany me on lone train rides, bumpy bus rides, long walks and through shitty times of my life. I don't think i've used any other single item everyday for more than a year without fail. My iPod is pretty much the most important item I have, mostly due to the fact that i can't live without music and how 15 of my beautiful friends chipped in to buy me that for my 15th Birthday. I can't imagine myself using any other music players, Apple will probably always be on the top of the list.
Thank you Mr. Jobs for harnessing such creativity and creating revolutionary items that have managed to make someone else's life a much better place.

“Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.” - Steve Jobs

All will be well

2011-09-23T09:04:00.000-07:00

Darren, you make my heart flutter too often. And Klaine is too adorable.

The day i burnt my fingers quite severely with my very own homemade udon. Go figure..

My first bandage skirt came in the mail today, joining my lone galaxy-print totebag. only ordered it because i adored the print. Hopefully this particular design will not spread like wildfire over the world wide web and lose its exclusivity.

Geekz4lyfe
i like national geographic documentaries i like to watch action movies and not romance movies i like thriller books and All-you-should-know-about-Evolution books i like to listen to non-mainstream music and watch snails make their way up a hill i like way too many dumb things i'm lazy to type them out

If only i could apply the same attitude to my studies ..which i did better than expected (seeing how i didn't study much) but it is still not good enough!!!!!
Also, I congratulate myself for hitting an A2 for my last english exam despite writing a sucky composition *applaude* let me self-indulge a little on this space, because we're busy being humble in the real world

30 days
here i am wasting it away
but i promise i will make the remaining time worthwhile

Keep fighting everybody! x

"Not socially comfortable with speaking to strangers"

2011-09-22T08:25:00.000-07:00

"I went through a complete stage of being typecast as a wealthy gay 17-year-old with incestuous tendencies."

~ Eddie Redmayne

I've been watching Pillars of the Earth and Eddie Redmayne's character intrigued me deeply. Apart from that, his features are lovely, almost to the extent where i feel my visual senses tingling and a strong urge to whip out a pencil to take down all that beauty. Am extremely tempted to check out all his other works but i'll have to leave that after my O's.

... Ah, Englishmen are all so witty and brilliant.

I've been listening to so many british singers these days i sing all my songs with a british accent. Such fun.

Sunday mid-mornings with an armed left hand

2011-09-17T22:48:00.000-07:00

I dropped an egg while trying to reach for a spoon with my other hand, causing my leg to stick out instinctively only to result in smashing the falling egg onto the counter

i later ate 3 undercooked half-boiled eggs and felt a tad disgusted

i waste too many eggs these days ..

$7 pomegranate juice that tasted like bliss
(though i do not agree with the price)
and some shots i took with my camera this morning
in attempt to try to increase the number of photographs i take with human as subjects and document my current obsession with headbands that help to keep up my floppy, overgrown fringe up

"She was a dericate little flower, and i was the ..bee." ಠ‿ಠ
.. i also should stop trying to use chonny's accent in real life

it's the last lap to press on

2011-09-16T02:58:00.000-07:00

a series of pictures i collected over the week
expect some bit of scrolling, am making a long post to make up for my absence slash absence-to-be

i was in the toilet when i spotted a new facial wash my sister purchased recently. i liked how it blended into the clean tiles in the morning light

the quiet saturday afternoon spent studying entire two years worth of Chemistry and Biology syllabus. Made some brunch with eggs, luncheon meat and cucumber. I can't flip an egg omelette over perfectly, but i'm almost capable of cracking open an egg with one hand.

Crystal Jade Mooncake's been my snack these days ..ah, how i love seasonal treats.

there are days where i walk past this Tree with One eye and i am always fascinated. I decided to take a closer shot 4 o'clock this afternoon with my digicam. Unfortunately, the sunrays were a tad too strong.

Peining's skull reference which I thought made quite an interesting subject

I handed up my Art Coursework yesterday :) I don't exactly like my final piece, probably because i've been staring at the estimated 1.8mX1m board for months. It was quite different from what i initially had in my head, and i had loads of trouble painting such a giant piece of work (for my very first time! on a freaking canvas!) with a wet medium, Acrylic (my very first time using this medium!). Even though i am not very good with Acrylic, I'm glad i used it as my main medium, because i picked up a new technique. Of course i did most of the detailing with pencils (It was such a relief to finally use a medium i'm familiar with) and had quite a improvement. Luckily, i quite like my prep boards as compared to my final piece. So, no regrets.

Fingers crossed(x) the examiners will be charmed by it (I don't think i've wanted an A1 so badly for any other subjects!)

Feels awkward to abandon a project after a seven-month long attachment. I will definitely miss how we blasted my playlist over the speakers, burst out in mainstream songs whenever we went a little too cranky, rushing to Nex to buy Milktea to help us get through the afternoon, coming back and staying in the artroom for >12hours, screaming and moaning in pain whenever someone uses fixative, skipping classes and hiding in our sanctuary; and a whole lot more of silliness.
Although Art has CLEARLY robbed us of all our time that was initially reserved for studying, i'm sure we can get make do with this last 38 days because well, i honestly don't think anyone else in school have exhausted themselves as much as we did. So, keep drawing and painting and studying, work hard, press on and we'll make it through ♥

Angelyn's super freaking awesome rainbow pencil that I ADORE
I'm going to source for a rainbow pencil as great as hers as soon as i can

Study plan for today, which totally failed. Hopefully i can make it up later :J

Gong Cha's Alisan Milk Tea w/ White Pearl Jelly 80% Sugar IS MY NEW ADDICTION NEXT TO NORMAL MILK TEA. I drank it on four consecutive days as a energy/mood-booster thanks to the lack of sleep during this super stressful week.

JELLYFISH LAKE from Sarosh Jacob on Vimeo.

That night i was playing around with an Anime-ish style (which i haven't touched for years) and my current obsession with drawing hair .. jellyfishes and flowers ended up in the background because a weird combination of Sweet Disposition - The Temper Trap and images of Jellyfish Lake were repeatedly playing in my head.

Been looping different covers of LONG DISTANCE CALL/PHOENIX and singing at the top of lungs whether i'm sad or happy or bored or tired or bathing. I feel sorry for my neighbours, but guess what? I'm sharing my joy with people who stumble upon this space by providing a version of Bashly's LDC cover here + Cameron Mitchell's LDC cover here. Yes, i edited the intros off and equalised them in wavepad :-)
I CLAIM NOTHING, JUST SPREADING GREAT MUSIC FOR EVERYBODY.

It's 8.47pm: I'll end with this cute video as I really need to take a bathe and start on my terrible Chemistry.
Have a good week :-)

2011-09-12T06:21:00.001-07:00

Yesterday: I slept for only four hours after a full day of cramming in Chemistry+Biology.
Today: I ended my prelim2 exams.
Today: I found this cute song that gives out really generous happy vibes.
Right now: I am tempted to update this space with a better post and explore Rosie and Me's Albums but I figured i am feeling too tired to be doing such things. I need sufficient rest, don't want to become an unhappy kid because of fatigue (such a dumb reason!).
I am going to sleep early, so Goodnight and sleep well, whoever you are :-)

2011-09-09T07:46:00.000-07:00

fifteen minute sketches to experiment with different styles; i initially thought i would like it but right now i don't think i quite like it. i guess the slow-paced realism's still on top of my list right now.

snippet from the notebook i carry around.

You can ignore these, they are for Bobster.
Yes, i admit i need to get slapped for watching Kenichi Matsuyama's Detroit Metal City/L:Change the World when i should be studying. No excuse since i just finished my Art coursework, and i still have 2 more final prelim papers next week. (which i haven't studied for, IT'S CHEM AND BIO FFS YOU'RE ALREADY FAILED PHYSICS WHY ARENT YOU SALVAGING YOUR CHEM AND BIO OMG WHY WHY WHY kaykaykaykay i need to get a grip)
but I am so tempted to watch Norwegian Wood ....... WHATISWRONGWITHME

There's so many pictures of him as L because 1)he acted so well and suited the character perfectly 2)that hairstyle is one of those that i've ALWAYS wanted but could never have because i think i look awful with short hair ~~now now, don't look at me strangely, a girl who wants short hair doesn't automatically make her tomboy or a lesbian or less attractive so snap out of that superficial phase, will you?~~

Contradictory wreckage

2011-09-07T09:34:00.000-07:00

That day i hopped over to Laeticia's house to bake some brownies.

a herb counter, a dream kitchen.

Zorro, Shitzu.

x

I made myself some french toast and soft-boiled eggs for breakfast.

Comfy uniqlo socks to shield me from painful cuts and blisters my awful Vans still give me (after a year of trying to break them in.

I need to get myself some boots, am jealous of Tiffany's boots.

That day i wore some jeans out after a long year of staying away from denim.
Do you like the beard that grew out from listening to too much indie songs?

Sad times = Vinegar/Beer-Batter-Fish fix

Unflattering picture of happy Robbie, Ashley's dog.

I like supermarkets.

x

boring boring boring sketches.
so uninspired lately.

less than 50 days to O-levels and i am a least bit prepared. Home's been rough, emotions are riding like a rollercoaster freakride, sometimes when i slip out of positivity (example: right now, 1:05am on a school night) everything feels unpretty.
I sincerely apologise if this made you a little bit unhappier.

You've been running around in circles thinking about love/ Oh you're such a mystery

2011-08-29T10:06:00.000-07:00

I still can't draw humans well. A wave of disappointment and embarrassment hits me every time i open up my newly-bought sketchbook.

I also made some pasta today (despite the lack of right ingredients, but i was too hungry care.)
It looked and tasted like my guilt. Horrid.

So scared of getting older/I'm only good at being young

2011-08-27T20:32:00.000-07:00

progess #1. progress #2. progress #3.

Spent many hours trying to complete this drawing. Near the end, i was feeling so much dread i could've stabbed myself. I knew i should go to sleep but i just couldn't let it go. Humans are so difficult to replicate, every small stroke and little detail changes the entire face, even the angle where you view the picture makes a difference.

“Today you are You, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is Youer than You.” - Dr. Seuss

That quote hit me hard last night. If a stroke smaller than a millimetre long can change someone's face completely, we must be really Really REALLY special in our own little ways :-)

Mm It's quite hilarious how I slept at 5 last night and woke at 10 this morning. I still am not satisfied with the final piece (somehow feel that it does not a single hint of justice to talented Cameron).
I'm going let it idle for a little while, try another picture and revisit it next time.

Stop This Train (Cover) - Cameron Mitchell / it's been repeating on my playlist for the last few hours

A short story i'm reading right now. It's so very magical, i might just reread it a few times more.

Where to go I had no idea

2011-08-27T06:23:00.000-07:00

Discovered Cameron Mitchell this peaceful morning after a twelve hours of sleep, his voice is lovely to listen to (easy to sing along with too~) and he's soooo cute in a geek way (i have this strange infatuation with good-looking, talented, unusually geeky boys). That's one of my drawing practices and i hope i'll be able to do him justice after i'm done with it, although drawing humans is one of my weakest points *excited*

I helped Tiffany pick out some boots today.

I'm spending too much of my savings on art materials like colour pencils. in the past, i would've bought clothes, but these days, i feel like i would prefer to spend my savings buying pencils, then spend my time working out something new with the limited old in my closet.
Although i do adore fashion very much, i think i should put them down on paper and improve my art instead. As someone who doesn't ask her parents for cash to buy items, my choices are financially limited. After thinking about it on bus rides and short walks to school, i've decided that i shouldn't base my passion too much on fashion. Sure, it's interesting and i love to see everyone dress in a visually-appealing way, but i guess there's always this small part in a human's mind that is doing so to crave for attention from another person. And if you feed that hungry trap long enough, it'll sneakily spread like cancer and eat into your soul and take all you've had away, especially in times when you're starved and in need of attention. Besides, it's expensive to maintain, financially and psychologically.
Sometimes i'm guilty of not using my time drawing and studying, because it's a mentally and physically difficult task to accomplish.
These days, i've been discovering a lot more beautiful musicians, Cameron Mitchell,(watch his acoustic song below!) Young the Giant, and of course much more. I love indie/alternative music, it's almost like it connects to my soul. I wished others would appreciate such artists too, because they are wonderful in so many ways yet to be uncovered.

i am going back to drawing, i hope i haven't offended anybody. Just some random thoughts from my head that i'll like to raise, mostly for myself and maybe a few others to come.

GUNS OUT

2011-08-25T04:13:00.000-07:00

Bishan library's cubicles are interesting to study in

in attempt to make myself remember Biology facts (my exam is tomorrow morning, it's 8pm and i have not studied! wish me luck pulling an all-nighter!)
I actually googled "how to pull an all-nighter" and learnt i've been doing it the wrong way all these years
shall try out the new methods today! fingers crossed x.

Adam Young's new twitter picture is perfect for Bob the Pod. ♥

I recently improved on one of my first drawings done in colour pencils so that i could use it for my prep boards. I am shamelessly attracted to it, because it shows cameras (photographer's love) and has a hint of nostalgia in it.

ice-cold Sara Lee chocolate pound cake deserves some noise

1. 15 minute draft for my 3-hour Art paper today
2. My right hand almost broke colouring non-stop (i am not kidding, did not even pause for 2 seconds!) for three hours. The end product isn't exactly what i wanted it to be, but i had a great sense of accomplishment after the paper. (8 hours of exams today, phewwww.)

--

I think i'll swap my idling shoutbox for formspring.

lovers by the sidewalk

2011-08-23T03:21:00.001-07:00

i want to live through a magical, poetic romance too.
i want to eat ice-cream, paint, illustrate, people-watch, read cute poems, dress-up like happy kids in colourblocked outfits, hold hands take a walk and not say a word- just listening to my non-mainstream music library, bake cupcakes that'll probably burn in the oven, photograph our adventures, smile awkwardly at random passerbys, discuss about unicorns and mermaids, browse through libraries and bookstores, look at recipe books, sip starbucks in silence without feeling a hint of awkwardness, be told my height is loved and accepted, buy expensive but pretty sneaker shoes together, appreciate each other's unusual yet visually appealing dress sense, watch still waters and raging fountains together, walk through crowded streets without a single complain, talk about embarrassing habits;
all that and more without a single hint of uncomfortable awkwardness.

This guy could save the world with both hands behind his back And still emerge with ten times the courage that others lack

2011-08-19T21:36:00.000-07:00

love how happy this video is

a little experimentation

spotted this cute little creature on my way to school

sprayed over a $3 wooden cross pendant with gold glitter

Easy-cool Milo + Ice cold Milk
you wouldn't wish for another source of comfort

I'm that girl who's mind wanders through lush forests clear waters and all that cosmic space

2011-08-14T05:01:00.000-07:00

I am almost done with my Art Prepboards :'-)
Went for the AEP talk at National Library today, and it really spoke to my heart. Am i going to follow my passion?
I accompanied Tiffany to NewLook today and i am so glad i'm tall (enough), because i can't stay/walk in heels for more than half a minute. I could hear my feet screaming in agony and struggling to continue working. Okay, maybe i exaggerated.

I want to go for live concerts and draw and paint but i don't have the funds+money
but for now, i'm going to start studying real hard for O's. a silent promise. *crosses fingers*

I CAME HERE TO GET OVER YOU

2011-08-09T00:28:00.000-07:00

These six songs are my absolute favourite from Brandon Flowers' album, Flamingo.
Repeating re-re-repeating for the past few days. Headaches are common these days, still feeling as unmotivated as ever, and stressed as ever :-(
I also watched Captain America for the second time yesterday at 12:30am. Har har, geekology much. Chris Evans *drools*, CAN'T WAIT FOR THE AVENGER TO COME OUT! May 2012, Oh yeah.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!

i want to live in the space between silence and noise

2011-08-07T07:30:00.000-07:00

noise. noise. noise. noise. noise.
loud sounds, loss of concentration.
suppressing negativity and anger.
stinging eyes. throbbing heads.
equates, a cycle.

x

the day it stops i know something has gone wrong
and i'll stare
wondering
why couldn't i
just love something so awful

x

when happiness floods me, i feel obliged to reject it
just a nagging thought that fleets
"I'm not happy, what makes you think you should be happier than i am?"
words, they cut through silence and above it all they slice your heart apart
that's why i prefer them written
because she can't
write

x

"fuck."
that single swear word is a
puny ant compared to all
the giants you released
from your lips

x

then again
nasty mouths
will always be better than
nasty hearts

a galaxy of dreams and dust is a little too far from here, for now

2011-08-06T09:43:00.000-07:00

Finally caught up with Valerie today, it was ..intimate. ;-)
Captain America was so good. The set, styling, acting (such witty dialogues!) and action was AMAZING.
if you have this thing for Action movies like how i have this thing for Action movies, you need to catch it. That, was intentional.

1. Throughout the movie, i was having thoughts in my subconscious state that went like: "Why couldn't i be born a 1.85m tall gorgeous blonde dude who could film movies being all awesome and pretending to beat up bad guys and reciting lovable witty lines." "How I wished i would be behind the scenes, shooting the movie." I've read finished the Hunger Games series a few weeks ago and how i wished i was a pretty American girl so i could act as Katniss.
Ah, acting's something too far away. It's almost a whole new universe, trust me, i'm that girl that can't even tell jokes with a straight face.

2. I secretly wished i had this particular friend that would prefer to watch Action movies and spazz with me and we'll grab onto our popcorns and open our eyes so wide and our hearts will pump to the excitement and we will feel awed and excited and great at the end of it all
Where are you, dear stranger that i haven't had the chance to do that with?

i still have problems talking about my feelings.

I wish you would tell me, how you really felt

2011-08-05T17:57:00.000-07:00

I'm not calling you a liar- Florence and the Machine

1. It's whole new experience when you listen to an artist's album in one sitting. Don't just listen to Dog Days are Over, listen to her whole album. It's pretty darn awesome.
I also watched Best Coast's OUR DEAL mv yesterday. Chloe Moretz did such a great job :') The styling was purrrrfect, watch it HERE! (and maybe you should get the album here) :

2. I've been ~~stalking~~ following one of my past friend's blogs. She has the same interests as me, music and art and words and photography and more stuff like that. It's kind of an amusing feat, like you're watching yourself do all your favourite things in a different way.

3. In the past few days, I've also confirmed how much i don't like to express my feelings to strangers. I was comtemplating writing a more personal story about the topic "Words" for my English exam but i felt like i couldn't let too much out to a .. stranger who is not really a stranger. (funny how i'm writing all this on a public domain, but i feel more like i'm talking to myself on my blog because nobody reads it except me, ha ha.)
Also, the other day I consulted my teacher about Art and she told me I had to change a lot of things. She kept asking me what i was so fearful about, and honestly, i was tongue-tied. I felt that i couldn't voice out whatever that was swimming in my head, and all that saltwater was threatening to pour out of my eye sockets. I was standing at the edge of a waterfall, as though if i took one step and my thoughts out, my entire existence would go crashing down into the dreaded unknown. Later that evening, i did Art till 5:30am in the morning, slept in my bed while everyone else went to school, those feelings at the tip of my tongue swallowed back into the pit of my stomach when i woke at noon.

4. I must remember to feed the fishes who are probably dying of depression from my father's filthy tank.

alcohol, you do no good

2011-08-04T07:30:00.000-07:00

there he was, probably drunk as ever, shouting.
i was stirred awake by the argument. i checked the clock next to my mattress -five in the morning.
"instead, Why don't YOU ask YOUR kids to use the toilet in a cleaner way? I DO wash the toilet."
I swear i snorted so loud, despite being groggy and fresh from my nightmares.
There he went, shouting and repeating incoherent sentences five in the morning.
So I stood waiting in the dark, staring into time and space, ready to burst out of my room if the situation worsened. I was drowsy and tired enough on that school night, but i stared anyway.

Eventually i fell asleep noticing how Adults are particularly childish and immature whenever they try too hard to protect their pride, waking up an hour later resting on a wet pillow, and proceeded to drag that weight to school.

Reality's a lovely place but i wouldn't want to live there

2011-08-02T04:58:00.000-07:00

the other day i decided to give myself another chance and take some portraits with my digital camera. It merely exceeded my measly expectations, but i'm glad it wasn't an unproductive ten-minute session.
I sense that i'll be hitting the replay button constantly when it comes to Eminem's (my favourite favourite rapper since i was, seven?) Space Bound.

School's keeping me busy these days, it's difficult to squeeze time to touch my keyboard. I'm not exaggerating, i have nine challenging subjects to handle, and i ain't exactly smart. it's approximately 18 days to my next preliminary exams, i am awfully unprepared because i'm still trying to get my 'O' levels Art done, i constantly fight the feeling of inferiority (i frankly don't have the time for such nonsense) and i am also guilty of reading too much fiction during lessons.

Ah, i'm just so occupied, all the time.

the longest friend i can remember

2011-08-01T06:09:00.000-07:00

What do you do when you draw a realistic picture of gorgeous blue eyes?

You do this to your friend.
*chokes on laughter*

object of focus: my longest friend, Tiffany

she's like cold coffee in the morning

2011-07-29T23:37:00.000-07:00

A Team/Ed Sheeran

Breezed through the ginger-god, Ed Sheeran's discography (his tunes are so pleasant on the ears) and practised human hands for a short ten minutes.

violet galaxies on my knees you always looked past

2011-07-29T09:19:00.000-07:00

x.
there she was, sitting at the bus stop in her old-fashioned manner. her left leg crossed over her right, patiently waiting. "green light, seven eleven .." the words float straight past her eardrums, as she runs her nail-bitten fingers over the rough patch of skin endeared with a violet galaxy of its own. she lets a tiny smile escape from her lips as she recounts how she'd got that little violet galaxy -a smile small enough others wouldn't have guessed she clumsily walked into a wooden table with a relatively sharp edge.
"stay and the night would be enough .." her gaze diverts upwards towards the nearby distance, half-hoping something exciting would happen. one blink, two blinks, three blinks, four blinks, five blinks, six blinks ..nothing. the six-second theory; any more than that, her mind would've start to plunge into thoughts far too deep.

ankle-deep was nice, it was in fact, pretty. pretty safe.

" ..just a bang and a clutter, as an angel hits the ground.. " her bus turns the corner and comes in sight. just in time, she gets up, just in time.
x.

brooding is my new best friend

2011-07-26T07:18:00.001-07:00

i've come to realise today when i was on the morning bus/in the warm shower and this instant, that i haven't been treating this space with the respect it deserves. thwarted entries like rants and pointless chunks of text have ended up in this space, taking for granted the freedom and being a very prominent pollutant

i know i've been tired and uninspired lately. i'm battling against this constant urge that's telling me to give up, not care and rot away like a starved and diseased piece of bark
my thoughts don't form into words well, often or not they come in bits and pieces like how the old vehicle engines cough and spurt in attempt to come alive
they say words form phrases then they slowly grow with the flow and end up becoming pages and pages of sentences, but its almost laughable how mine stop abruptly at the phrase phase

this space was initially supposed to be full of pretty images, wonderful music and flowing rivers of words, all that pop up in that complicated mind above
i really wanted to share a piece of whatever that goes on in that whirlpool, i wanted to take out brimfuls of self-collected thoughts and put it for another stranger to see

unfortunately, its been months and i've pretty much failed in a lot of ways
from now on, i do promise to update with more content that's true to my head. i am a girl who gets sick of things easily, like how i'm dreading to continue writing this journal. i'm thristy, feeling extremely stale and living almost like a robot.

i can feel my eyelids struggling to keep up with this familiar white box that doesn't look familiar at the same time
it suddenly seems like a rough shade of ivory, sometimes with absolute bursts of colour that somehow enhances my vision

i'm tired
right now i'm tired
but i'll get over this fatigue
as strength can be drawn, which is a fact i've know since the day i started to grow unexpectedly into someone they couldn't recognise

lazy visuals

2011-07-24T18:54:00.000-07:00

the lazy black and white cat that lazes around on the bus-stop seats frequently

this tree at the back of my house has bark structure that resembles an eye

a trip to the pet shop :-)

LEE MIN HO

2011-07-19T06:17:00.000-07:00

the only guy actor that can make my heart flutttttter all the time
AND YES i do believe a healthy dose of unrequited love (this IS the true case of unrequited love hahaha!) is good for the soul of a teenage girl who loves being single and free
Whoever said that liking an actor/actress is silly is a very boring person. Come on, have a little imagination and stop breaking your own hearts from falling for every guy/girl who comes across you.

I hope you find your own little source of sudden-hormone-disruption that'll throw your feelings into wild chaos
:-) best thing is, you don't have to deal with insignificant troubles (maybe, just the exception of post-effect syndromes like the loss of ability to prevent smiling stupidly to nothing but yourself) like lying to yourself repeatedly to appreciate your partner's overly-cheesy text messages and gifts

Honestly the whole point of this entry is to recommend you to watch City Hunter if you've got the time because its bloody exciting (cliffhangers on EVERY episode, Are you kidding me, do you want to rob me of my sleep?!) and rather cool stunts. :-)

i'm happppy ~^_^~

dear john

2011-07-18T03:28:00.000-07:00

some long overdue photographs.

it's not the usual basic Monday. i wore a Punjabi suit for the first time today, for Racial Harmony Day. we also collected part of our results today. I did alright for English, but the rest was well, a ball of failure. literally. i don't feel much, right now.
i've been sick lately. coughing my lungs out and battling the extra heat darling fever piled on (besides the atrocious weather). drugged, i skipped two days of school and slept my time away. feels rather great actually, not needing to care about exams and deadlines. i've been too tired lately.
i am still sick. this cough ain't being kind on my throat. it feels like an entire patch of skin has been stripped bare. trying to sleep is the worse feeling on earth right now. every few seconds bad old rough cough escapes from my lungs, almost worse than the sound of an alarm.
it's almost hell whenever i see food. i can't eat a lot of things right now. every time i smell something great or see something delicious, my stomach growls and my mouth salivates. "wait, you cannot eat those or you'll cough yourself dead"

i think, even flowers in the field can wither watching that smile turn into a frown

2011-07-09T08:25:00.000-07:00

I caught Harry Potter last night

It was all magically fantastic with the vrrrroom vrrooom vrrom vrooom BAM!
The part when they showed Snape's story I was like NUUUUUU -TEARS- T____T now I understand why I've always liked Snape since young ...

I need to start reading the books (when i was seven, i really understood nothing :<)

I need to watch it again.
When im feeling better of course , because right now im coughing my lungs out :(

I feel sad whenever I see Harry Potter posters with "IT ALL ENDS HERE."
:(((((((((((((
SIGH

oh yeah lido's cinema is really pretty :)

WHEN I TURN JET BLACK, YOU'LL SHOW OFF YOUR LIGHT, I LIVE TO LET YOU SHINE

2011-07-08T02:11:00.000-07:00

" But you can skyrocket away from me
and never come back if you find another galaxy
far from here with more room to fly
just leave me your stardust to remember you by. "

one of my recent addicts, a really pretty song
Mm hmm, "pretty" seems like a good adjective for it

x.

TELL ME AGAIN IF IT WAS LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT

2011-07-02T10:30:00.001-07:00

Guess who bought her first CD on 2nd July 2011 yesterday? :-) (it's 1:42am!)
honestly i'm kind of disappointed with his latest album (i expected alot more, something like his Maybe I'm Dreaming album ...) but i guess i'll get used to them. i still adore Adam's music though, no worries!

Yes, i am such a sucker for anything surreal, including colours most will probably never see in the real world. I am guilty of oversaturating those hues but really, what's wrong with that? ;-)

x

Hello Min, this entry is for you!

2011-07-01T09:48:00.000-07:00

just a silly little conversation with the wise one in my head which i penned down in my Inspiration log.

i drew those pictures you kindly sent me for my first-hand drawings. I'm sorry they aren't fantastic, but thank you very much for your pictures ~^_^~

Remember us and visit Singapore soon! (..i have always wanted to travel to Korea, but seeing how i haven't got to leave this tiny dot in like, 7 years, i think the chances are almost negligible *depressed shake*)

I will miss having someone to make intelligent conversations with during Guild outings :*) (yes, that is a magical teardrop)

I hope you'll have a safe flight and be happy in everything you do in the future! x

i am blind but sometimes i do see

2011-06-27T07:09:00.001-07:00

extremely disconnected from Art
i want to sketch, paint, draw, design, take photographs, edit photographs, scan pictures, create satisfying blogposts

but this busy period of time is stopping me from doing so

today i realised how bad i am with words
i can't express what my mind (which is one supermassive whirlpool that pukes out rainbow confetti) churns out every minute
that is why i feel so uncomfortable not being able to do the Art i want to to calm those waters

on a lighter note, chemistry exam today was manageable. for the first time, i finished the paper in that short span of an hour and a half and actually knew how to do most questions! Ironic thing is -I DID NOT STUDY.
this exam is making me feel like such a smartass. which i know is a lie, hah hah.
i spent my entire day sleeping because yesterday was draining (BUT EXTREMELY FUN WILL BLOG ABOUT IT SOON:>) Social Studies is such a bore. I would say its one of the most difficult subjects to study because the material is just INSANELY BORING

mm please let me get through this tough period with ease x

BAD VISION

and holy shit on this coming wednesday i have to stand infront of the entire school to lead them in reciting the pledge
holy shit holy shit i can't even pronounce words properly offstage you want to make me do that infront of a thousand people holy shit i feel nauseous whenever i think of that
and yes example of me being bad with words

blue flower, blue flame

2011-06-18T08:51:00.000-07:00

2011-05-20T09:59:00.000-07:00

i'm just going to summarise my week/weeks with random pictures taken by my new phone (i named it Adam)

Strawberry Avalanche / Helentubby (My friend's name is Helen, the rest is up to you to guess)

sharpened color pencils / double-coloured homemade cake

best bubble tea ever, you have to Drink Tea!

feather earrings as a gift for tiffany

rabbit thinking cap i got for my older sister last year (proves to work) / rustic lamp in the art studio

my new home (working on my final art piece now!) / a new pink blazer

belts with heart loops and studs / vitamin water (my favourite drink ever)

homemade brunch / beige oxfords with pink socks

the pit building near flyer for flashlightbatteriess flea :)

helen's tiger roaring at the contradictory magazine cover

i watched a clown fish EVOLVE. -poketard-

more of the homemade cake we baked for Helen's birthday. It tastes better than it looks.

paper crane fiona gave me / caramel frappucino to keep me awake

more caramel frappucino resulting in me violating my caffeine and sugar rules / Tiffany broke her cone before she even licked it, she cursed rather loudly

a terribly fake fisheye effect from an app in my phone / did i ever cross your heart?

it's 0117, and i'm off to sleep.

2011-05-12T09:34:00.000-07:00

Oh dear, what a depressing post huh. Sorry guys, i haven't been able to update this space because my new phone, the Omnia7 let me take pictures and edit them and upload them all at one go :)
Nope, my life is not revolved around crying all night haha. If you're not my friend on facebook/follower on twitter (i am @collarious) you're missing out alot.

So add me up ！♥

Owl City

2011-05-07T22:55:00.000-07:00

Adam's music never fails to make me smile, whether i'm feeling glum or feeling extraordinary happy or feeling nothing at all. if you have not found the artist that'll be able to catch you in surprise everytime their music comes on (despite spending countless hours of your life listening to them), you have to search for him/her. I roughly remember that gloomy afternoon 3 years ago when a heartbroken little girl stumbled upon an australian stranger's blog and adam's track played automatically. Almost felt like a spark on my heart. From then on, i never stopped listening.

Somewhere only we know

2011-05-03T06:49:00.000-07:00

A weekdaynight (i just had to :v) out for dinner with the tennis girls ♥ love, love those dates when they come back from other countries =)
We caused quite a havoc in Pastamania (refer to fig.2) and Noelene and I successfully tackled a 500gm cup of Frozen Yogurt for dessert.

2011-04-29T22:10:00.000-07:00

ALL OF THEM ARE SO CUTE!
omg everybody must love flashmobs

2011-04-28T02:15:00.000-07:00

He is adorable, nice and so witty.
I think i've found myself my first role model.

i can't make her happy.

2011-04-24T07:48:00.000-07:00

Good Friday †=♥

2011-04-22T07:50:00.000-07:00

i couldn't buy the Darren Criss sunglasses online (i've no creditcard, sigh!) so i bought a plain pair of sunglasses and ~tried~ to write on his name in the most accurate way possible, but as you can see- it doesn't look like his handwriting :( Oh well, better than nothing! :D

I has a sparkly owl on mah phone
OWL LOVE U FOREVER

the evening spent having froyo below a void deck at the senior citizen's corner (michelle and i wanted to pay sick Keely a visit, but she left home before we could surprise her T^T)

Had a Good Friday with my sister, got a few loots from the flea =)

the gems that shine from within

2011-04-19T06:21:00.000-07:00

x. Authentic Japanese bread somehow have a very heartwarming taste.

x. the night i impulsively started my first self-painted tee collection.
I disappoint when my mind doesn't plan.

x. the mid-afternoon where i cut up far too many hearts for most of my lovely talented friends.

x. the first time i bought flowers for people.
I hope you liked them, my friends.

x. Val, HATP

x. Some awkward shots we took along the way. (Trust me, it was very awkward indeed.)

x. Film.
To date, i think i've wasted at least an entire pack on wasted shots. Sometimes due to the clumsiness of others, sometimes due to my burning curiosity to 'experiment'.
My inner-photographer self as well as my thrifty face is certainly not pleased.

Turn your swag on

2011-04-15T21:20:00.000-07:00

Lack of updates is due to my first and very sudden "artist block". nothing i've drawn has managed to please me, the worst thing is- i cannot figure out what is wrong. I'm still facing it right now, i cannot figure how to draw Glass in the most realistic way possible. all my nights are spent frustrated and angry. Doesn't help knowing that i am way behind many others in class. This week's been tough but watching darren criss and his postive adorable self makes me feel much better (and a little guilty because i should be doing work but i just cannot when i'm feeling like shat)

HEY GIRL ENOUGH WITH THIS, TIME TO TURN UR SWAG ON.

thoughts in the night to consider

2011-04-05T06:49:00.000-07:00

Remember to breathe because it'll take your breath away, Remember to live because you'll gonna be thrilled to death ♥

rings for myself ? :O

2011-04-04T04:43:00.000-07:00

some new rings to fill up my accessory box.
everything in total cost me less than $10 *cheapthrill*

my friends are wonderful/

2011-03-31T23:20:00.000-07:00

The day i felt like cooking dinner after school. Thankfully, Tiffany was mad enough to go with my sudden impulses :)

My lovely friends surprised me with presents and a cake on the morning of my Birthday ♥

Expected present from Joyce and Eunice :O i don't usually like stuffed toys, but this one reminds me too much of a bean-filled red star that i hugged to sleep everyday when i was young. I remember how i would look at it and tell it my problems, how i sewed the hems myself when the sides burst (because i was hugged it too often and too hard) and how depressed i felt when my mom threw it away without my notice. From then on, i didn't attach myself to anything non-living. But right now, that bean-stuffed dog's on my bed :)

Keely brought me packed lunch for my Birthday! AWW :)

Froyo ♥

Camera Eyes

2011-03-26T09:43:00.000-07:00

dreamy skies i will probably never see

and there was a little more contrast to the surroundings

and the Singapore River wasn't a dull green colour

sometimes i pretend i control life

Freshness Burger's calming ambiance, with oldies playing over the speakers

a nasty purple bruise on my knee from dancing and kneeling too much

converses that make my legs seem short, yet i like them because they make me feel like a soldier

a friendship bracelet i bought together with some amazing people in the house committee

a union jack ring to express my love for all things British
and also the first ring i bought in my life, and also the first one i spoiled due to my rough nature
i'll glue back soon

lastly, a vandalised polariod of Tiffany and I

Perhaps, i am not as bad as i think i am ..

2011-03-25T09:45:00.000-07:00

Being in the committee was already a surprise. Dancing in the committee as a dancer was a challenge i decided to take on. I've never danced, let alone infront of a crowd. Being asked to take on the Vice-captain of Chew House was startling. Agreeing to it meant taking a huge leap of faith, having been vocally-challenged and with zero leadership experience.

Making embarrassing mistakes addressing crowds, trying to shake off negative feelings of what i've always been embarrassed about in order to appear legitimate, battling all the insecurities within, forcing myself to be more alert and a little friendlier to the people around, non-stop work till wee hours of the night to meet deadlines, perfecting hippos on GIMP with a mouse for 7 consecutive hours, sleepless nights on dreadful school days, trying to meet the standards of dancing well enough (when people told you in the face about how weird you look for all your life), fears of being unable to match up to other people's expectations -i may have not got over most of my fears, but i've definitely grew a lot stronger.

Today's sports day was Miraculous. It was different from the previous years, the concept was so unappealing. The mass cheer for our house didn't go well, due to the lack of preparation time before the showdown. When we were told 2 seconds into our dance song that we could not dance on the podium, only on the floor just because the principal didn't allow it -we were slightly shaken. How would we coordinate when we couldn't communicate with the dancers standing on the other side of the parade square? Without a backup formation for the floor, we could not perform like how we practiced before. It was such a waste, I swear the dancers practiced so hard, staying back for long hours in the holidays and till 7/8 everyday during school days.

Watching how amazing the other houses were, we slowly lost hope. Their cheers, dance items were so vividly chereographed. I remember trying not to show my disappointment and fear, in case that was contagious. Apparently everyone else was doing the same too. After a long individual prize presentation that didn't show Chew in a favorable position, the whole committee linked hands we all prayed silently in our heads. Chew House has been winning for the last 6 years. I didn't want to be the ones that broke the chain.
At that point, we all knew it would take a miracle to continue the legacy.
The fourth to second places for Overall Champions were announced. Chew wasn't called. That single second it took to sink in was much longer than it really was. Chew House was the champion. Screams and shouts and sounds sounded out around me in an instant, my instinct followed. Yet my mind was unconvinced. Looking around, everyone jumping up and down and screaming at the top of our lungs -that feeling was indescribable, it couldn't be held in.

We screamed, we hugged, we teared. By God's grace, we managed to continue the legacy.
Chew House, champions for 7 years and counting.

CONvenient stores for me

2011-03-23T06:21:00.000-07:00

The first item i purchased from the newly-opened convenience store below my house. I like convenience stores because they are very convenient.

theres no need to talk dont say a word its all to much and a bit absurd, all i ask is you stay the night

2011-03-21T06:34:00.000-07:00

sometimes i wished i met more interesting people who are actually interested in my odd ways.

YOU WANNA BE, A LOSER LIKE ME

2011-03-20T01:14:00.000-07:00

This march holidays' been tough. Days have been tiring. I don't mind being physically tired, but being emotionally-drained bugs me. I would say i'm usually rather careful about situations, but lately, i've been extremely clumsy. The other day, i watched the entire plate of chicken rice slide and fall towards me, yet i didn't react. Yesterday i dropped Bob on the bus when i was going to alight, fumbled for it when the bus was so full and crowded, and almost missed my stop. Afterwards, i almost stepped onto a pool of vomit. It's like my mind is so distracted it just goes idle. it's starting to get on my nerves.
/ Time at home's demoralising. Honestly i like being home, nothing beats that feeling of comfort and security. Yet, my feelings are tied up all the time. My emotions are tangled up. I can't think straight, i can't breathe right. Only when silence fills the air, i feel slightly better. That doesn't come often though. I am forced to act like another person. forced to ~~speak~~shout like another.
On top of that, i've managed to unintentionally commit a terrible mistake again. I didn't mean it that way. I guess i thought i found a friend. Close one, that is. But no, it just can't stay that way. I don't know why i couldn't bear give a straight answer, like always. My intentions to not harm always manage to turn against me. I've forgotten that i'm probably the only one who can comprehend my own answers in the way i intended it to be. Right now i'm so very confused, even though i've thought over it probably ten million times, i still don't know how's the correct way to act. I tried being oblivious last night and god, i felt so awful and mean and was bloody disgusted with myself. The rest of the night was then spent slipping in and out of dreams, feeling like the bastard child i am. In the morning i received a lecture from my dad, again. I kind of tried to explain what i was feeling in this house, but obviously failed. I think, he understood a tiny fraction of it. But it was enough for now
, i was practically drowning in relief. I cried so fucking hard in the morning my eyes still feel so sore. That strange feeling of vulnerability when your heart gives in and crumbles, your face crumples and your tear ducts go out of control, i really don't know what to think of it.
Perhaps i'm slowly losing it.

2011-03-17T03:50:00.000-07:00

i can't stop watching the kiss scenes. it's so adorable i feel as if i could die. Klaine oh Klaine :')

Art Biennale 2011

2011-03-16T09:04:00.000-07:00

Happiness, it hurt, like a train on a track

2011-03-15T07:01:00.000-07:00

I watched Red Riding Hood the other day. it was awful. please don't waste your money on a film like that. ate Sea Salt and Caramel ice-cream from Azabu Sabo (did i remember the name of the shop correctly?). I didn't like it, my tongue felt as though it was drowning in sea water :(
Took neoprints with Tiff any Val. It was my first time doing so after 5 long years. (which is the reason why i look overly excited) Aah, the nostalgia. I like neoprints, i want to take more.

I've been pretty unproductive throughout the holidays. Honestly, i feel terrible. I try to be happy, yet my feelings at home's always rock bottom. The other day i was lectured for and scolded for half an hour at midnight about something i didn't exactly do. Misunderstandings. All i could do was stand there, not speak a word and watch the hands of the clock move. I hate crying infront of anyone, but i couldn't stop the tears from flowing. It felt like as though my heart was stripped bare and a knife just kept poking at it for thirty consecutive minutes. It was exhausting, all i wanted was some fucking warmth in the house. But somewhere along the way i realised that i was never going to have that luxury, or even be simply understood in this house. All i want to do is to curl up and hibernate. Since i cannot, all i do is sit in front of the computer, in attempt to seek solace.

You'll take to the sky

2011-03-13T19:59:00.000-07:00

Experimenting with my new Instax.
The simple settings are a challenge, but i like challenges.

SOME THINGS ARE TO BE KEPT SECRETS

2011-02-26T06:21:00.000-08:00

M u m f o r d & S o n s ♥
A i r p o r t
N e w Y o r k
F r e e e e from exams for now yet as busy as a bumble bee

2011-02-22T03:14:00.001-08:00

"Whenever I see a pretty girl, I feel so intimidated. It’s like whenever I think I look decent or okay, I come across a pretty girl in a picture or a pretty friend and I just immediately fall into the assumption that I would never measure up to that kind of “pretty.” It’s like I can never be enough because there will always be someone prettier and better."

Tonsillitis

2011-02-18T07:03:00.000-08:00

i have Tonsillitis. i'm celebrating that fact because i studied all of biology with consistent sharp pains from my head and throat. H o n e s t l y that is not true. its just fascinating to get a throat infection after such a long time.

disgusted

2011-02-12T06:40:00.000-08:00

.. i feel like vomiting whenever i look into a mirror. haiz.

Villagers

2011-02-10T00:25:00.000-08:00

by far the only song that manages to give me the creeps

because Conor is bloody fantastic

autism

2011-02-05T10:09:00.000-08:00

i believe i'm just medically uncertified

new year

2011-02-05T01:51:00.000-08:00

i didn't buy any cny clothes, like always, and ended up wearing my sister's floral dress. forced to take pictures with my camwhoring elder sister. watched a movie with my family for the first time in my life. wore my self-bleached highwaisted shorts and f21 sparkly top (have been dying to find a chance to wear this top i purchased a year ago...) for the midnight movie. chinese new year's been pretty fine, luckily. =)

2011-02-03T22:23:00.000-08:00

CINDERELLA'S SISTER : i just finished this drama today. and i swear, its so amazing.
so many things you can pick out and learn from the plot.
talented actors with superb acting skills. (i love you Moon Geun-Young :I)
I think i cried at least thrice for every episode :x my heart ached like x21313 watching this, but it was worth it T__T

-cryfest-=')

chills to the bone

2011-02-02T00:51:00.000-08:00

exploring in the r'a'i'n and c*o*l*d

subjack

2011-01-28T09:21:00.000-08:00

Subjack: jack the japanese jelly

Vampire Weekend

2011-01-22T20:33:00.000-08:00

i just found the most amazing baking website + discovered Vampire Weekend today :>
reason why i didn't search up their music even after hearing of their name is because i thought that they were some cheesy rock band .... BUT THEY ARE SO FABULOUSLY INDIE. ♥♥♥

i really really really really feel like going to the kitchen and baking now. :( i know i only can do so during june/dec holidays, sigh ):

alone time

2011-01-19T05:00:00.000-08:00

i've been procrastinating non-stop. haven't been doing Art, or anything for that matter. still trying to cope. i am grateful for this week alone.
i'll find myself once again.

Gregarious

2011-01-15T10:52:00.000-08:00

I'm not going to lie, today was tiring. so, so tiring. But being in the company of Tiffany and Valerie did ease the fatigue. I laughed ALOT despite doing something embarrassing (suck it up suck it up!!!).
I overspent so much today in a sorry attempt of filling my empty shell up.

Oh yes,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY VALERIE.♥♥♥
HAPPY BIRTHDAY VALERIE.♥♥♥
HAPPY BIRTHDAY VALERIE.♥♥♥
HAPPY BIRTHDAY VALERIE.♥♥♥
HAPPY BIRTHDAY VALERIE.♥♥♥
i hope you know i love you so much my heart can't even contain.

make my mind move

2011-01-11T03:52:00.000-08:00

like a lost boat, drifting and losing its path, battling countless storms, lost hope and faded faith, growing weary, with unknown ends

2011-01-10T19:09:00.000-08:00

this is called true love, yo.
HAHAHAHA i can imagine all your disturbed faces now.